Really Nervous

I'm so nervous about this show thing I have tonight. I've never before sat behind a table of my wares and tried selling them. I guess it's fear of failure. Fear of rejection. It feels like such a personal insult when people don't like what I've made. So far, I've gotten really good feedback from this stuff, it's other things I've done in the past that people have said shit about. Guess it just went through me and stuck. Shit. I hate this feeling. In my earlier days, I'd just totally blow off this thing, but I'm going tonight, dammit.

You'd think this was some huge thing the way I'm carrying on. It's at the local JCC (Jewish Community Center) where several of my friends send their kids to nursery school. There's a holiday party there tonight so they are having a vendor boutique. I'll be there from 7-8:30. Why the fuck am I this nervous? Why am I this insecure? Fuck. I hate this.

Y'all know how wacky I must be feeling because I think I've used more curses in those 2 paragraphs than I've used in my last month's worth of entries. I have a total truck driver's mouth, but I can usually control it for the proper situations. No chance of that right now. I'm so fucking nervous!

Ok, back to your regularly scheduled programming...and I'm going back to the basement to try and sew some more stuff to try and sell to people tonight.

It's over!

Well, the show's over. I sold ONE BIB. Yep, ONE BIB. And I actually BOUGHT an outfit from another vendor. So let's see...$25 for the table, $32 for the outfit, add $10 for the bib, and I'm out $47! Just my freakin' luck!

In any case, I had a good time. I got a lot of positive feedback. Most of the people there have older kids and didn't have anyone to buy baby presents for. That seemed to be the main reason for the non-buying. There wasn't a lot of business going on over all, just a lot of browsing. A handful of people took my card and some said they'll call me in the future, yadda yadda yadda.

Best part was that the woman I bought the outfit from was super nice and we hit it off. She has been making and selling these adorable tie dyed outfits for kids for 18 years and she really knows the ins and outs of it all. She said that I should call her and that she'd help me in any way she can. She went nuts over my stuff. So that felt good.

I also saw some friends there, which was nice...

All in all, it was a positive experience and I'm glad I did it. Thanks to you all for your kind supportive words! I learned how these things work and I also know how to merchandise a little better next time so the stuff "pops" when you walk by.

Ok, time to forward that link on to everyone you know who has a kid, knows a kid, knows someone who knows a kid! You get the idea. www.cutethreads.com

:-)

Oh, and there's this...

My brother and his wife and daughter came over last night for some holiday cheer. This picture sums up how Lily and Layne get along. Note: Layne is 2 1/2 months YOUNGER than Lily. She's a giant. We call her "The baby that ate the Bronx"!