Grrr

I hate feeling angry at a friend for mostly self destructive actions that only slightly inconvenience my life. It's just so fucking frustrating. I wish I just didn't give a shit and could be all la di da, but I'm pissed off and I'm concerned.

I so wish that I could turn off my maternal thing when it comes to friends. It's cost me a few friendships in the past (but they were bound to end anyway), but I think this time I'm just being sensible.

I guess being a great friend is a burden I'm gonna have to carry. Sounds trite, but it really is hard. It's also one of my favorite things about myself, my loyalty and primitive need to protect people I care about.