Going Away

We're leaving tomorrow morning for upstate NY to attend Robert's niece Molly's bat mitzvah. We decided to make a long weekend out of it since this is the time every year that we take a vacation and since we didn't really have the time or money to plan anything longer. We don't usually do anything extravagant, just usually go somewhere north and hang out and look around little towns and eat at inns. I'm nervous about this trip because it's our first trip with both kids. Also, I'm totally pissed off at Robert's sister because she basically has ignored Lily's existence other than a brief hospital visit when Lily was 1 day old. Robert's other sister is extremely generous with both of my kids. She loves coming over and is totally in love with Laszlo. It pisses me off that we have to shlep everyone up there to attend this, considering that they live mostly in NYC for the last year or so. They used to live in the city full time, but after 9/11 they decided to raise the girls in the country.

The good news is that my mother and brother and sister in law are also invited, and we're all taking the long weekend, so it will be a whole family vacation for us. I have a massage booked for Saturday morning and that's what I'm most looking forward to. That and showing off my amazing kids. I had Lily in about a dozen different ensembles this morning trying to figure out what she should wear. I want them to see my kids and feel horrible that they haven't seen them. Is that mean of me? I don't care honestly. I'm so angry with them. And I have been chatting with Molly online and we have become rather close, which is nice. Bad thing is that her mothers are just not nice to us at all and have inappropriate grudges for things that never happened.

In any event.

I don't really like going away because of the stress involved in preparation. Times like these I truly love breastfeeding. All I need for miss Lily are some adorable clothes and some diapers. That's it. She's so low maintenance. Of course we'll bring some toys too, but she's totally fine just staring at her brother in admiration.

I met my mother's friend's daughter yesterday and I've never wanted to kiss a girl so badly in my life. She had JUST come out to her mom the night before, although she suspected it for a while. So probably knowing that she's gay intrigued me. Plus she's totally gorgeous. She looks like Debra Messing (Grace from Will and Grace) only prettier and with dark brown hair. We walked home together from breakfast (the moms drove) and then I showed her around while the moms stayed downstairs. Not sure what came over me. Guess those unfulfilled girlie things are coming back to haunt me!

Also found out yesterday that my friend's mother died...the one I had called after several years. I was so sad. I was upset about Laszlo too, but that deserves its own entry. I was an emotional wreck yesterday, but feel a lot better today.

Plus I think Robert's finally realizing that I have been busting my ass and he's been SUCH a baby about his back. Hopefully this trip doesn't SUCK.

Posting about Laszlo now.

He Breaks My Heart

Yesterday Laszlo was playing with the dogs, as usual. He's using them to test out all his language, which is just so damn cute. "You want this triangle, Kibbles? Oh, ok. How 'bout another shape? You want this circle? Circle good Kibbles?" Stuff like that. And he gives them toys and biscuits all the time.

So he was playing with Alabama while she was eating a bone and trying to run away from him. He kept after her, "Good running, Abama" - and finally cornered her. So she bit him. I didn't see the actual bite, but I know it hurt because he had little teethmarks on his hand. He was hysterically crying but managed to say, "I sorry Abama, 'scuse me Abama." He knew he intruded on her and that he "deserved" to be bitten. I wasn't angry with the dog. Laszlo's got to learn that they have boundaries and not to bother them while they are eating. He was so sweet about it. He was on my lap crying saying, "Be gentle Laszlo, Abama...No hurt Laszlo." I couldn't help crying. He totally breaks my heart. This boy is the sweetest thing I've ever seen. He's just so pure and good and doesn't have a mean bone in his lil body. He loves his sister, plays with her so nicely. I don't know what I ever did to deserve him. Lily too, only he's such a person already and just showing his goodness in everything he does. Not a day goes by that he doesn't amaze me.

Quiz thing

Copied from Housepoet:

o name: Jen
o age: 33
o where on earth do you live: Just outside NYC
o reason behind your LJ username: Parts of my kids' names
o five things you want to do/accomplish before you die: Go hang gliding, own a boutique with handmade crafts from local artisans (myself included), get really good at mosaic tiling, live to see my kids be happy, healthy adults, stop thinking so hard about stuff!
o what makes you happy: My children
o what have you been listening to lately: Bill Withers
o do you enjoy reading my LJ: Yep
o if so, why: I love reading moms who are as in love with their children as I am.
o interesting fact about you: Hmmm...I'm a little psychic
o are you in love at the moment: Yes, with my kids mostly and hubby a lil! Just kidding, I'm in love with all 3.
o favorite destination: Maui
o favorite quote: There is no spoon
o will you post this in your LJ: Sure, why not

recommend.
o a movie (that amazes you - a beautiful movie): Just saw In America and was blown away by it.
o a book (that inspires you, and one you couldn't put down): That's tough, I haven't read a book in ages. Embarrassing, I know. Oh, unless you count Mama Do You Love Me? That's one of my faves.
o a musical artist, song, or album: Indigo Girls, everything by them
o your favorite LJ user (not on my list already): preternatural