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Kinda Excited
Nov. 8th, 2004 03:22 pmA friend emailed and told me about a table show they are having at the nursery school for the holidays. She asked me to have a table to sell my baby shirts, blankets, etc. I'm really excited, but totally nervous because I've never had the guts to do that before. I am so bad about this stuff. For some reason my confidence is really in the toilet about things I make, and I end up giving them away or just charging ridiculously cheap prices to people. But I can't do that here, because I'm going to actually make a price list, so I can't sit there and change it. I've done research about what stuff like mine costs, and I've factored in what it *should* cost due to the time I spend and just the materials. Of course, having a husband who's a PhD economist doesn't hurt with the pricing info. I just have to be tough, right?
I remember when I first started making the baby blankets, I called my friend (who started out as my masseuse) and asked her about charging friends. She said, "Business is business and I wouldn't work on you for free, so I wouldn't expect you to give me a blanket for free." I really wish I could just have the balls I need in this area. It's the one area in my life I have SUCH little confidence. I mean, of course there are days I feel like shit about this or that, but I'm generally a pretty positive person. But I just never expect people to like what I make them. And not only that, I have heard from several families of babies I've made blankets for that my blanket is their *favorite* and that it's their security blanket, etc. Which really could not possibly make me happier.
I'm retarded. This isn't news to most of you.
I registered a new domain name that better fits the stuff I'd like to make and sell. www.CuteThreads.com . Of course there's nothing there now, but hopefully will be *something* in the next few weeks. And Jan, I still owe you money, so please let me know how much! I'm so sorry I've been so bad about it. I really want to get something up and running and do something to make money. Robert's job is good, but there are issues with his bonus this year - and his bonus is more than his salary. It's a really bad thing about working on Wall Street...you never know what your bonus is, and that's what you really count on. And of course it's the same year we bought our house and had another baby. Not that I'll make near what he'd take home from his bonus, but he said if I can make a few hundred dollars a month, that we'll be fine and can avoid getting into debt. I think that's realistic for me if I just set my mind to it.
Ok, enough of all this...I think I'm writing it more to myself than to any of you reading. Sort of like rationalizing why I'm so f*cked up about this stuff, although I can't really put my finger on it.
I remember when I first started making the baby blankets, I called my friend (who started out as my masseuse) and asked her about charging friends. She said, "Business is business and I wouldn't work on you for free, so I wouldn't expect you to give me a blanket for free." I really wish I could just have the balls I need in this area. It's the one area in my life I have SUCH little confidence. I mean, of course there are days I feel like shit about this or that, but I'm generally a pretty positive person. But I just never expect people to like what I make them. And not only that, I have heard from several families of babies I've made blankets for that my blanket is their *favorite* and that it's their security blanket, etc. Which really could not possibly make me happier.
I'm retarded. This isn't news to most of you.
I registered a new domain name that better fits the stuff I'd like to make and sell. www.CuteThreads.com . Of course there's nothing there now, but hopefully will be *something* in the next few weeks. And Jan, I still owe you money, so please let me know how much! I'm so sorry I've been so bad about it. I really want to get something up and running and do something to make money. Robert's job is good, but there are issues with his bonus this year - and his bonus is more than his salary. It's a really bad thing about working on Wall Street...you never know what your bonus is, and that's what you really count on. And of course it's the same year we bought our house and had another baby. Not that I'll make near what he'd take home from his bonus, but he said if I can make a few hundred dollars a month, that we'll be fine and can avoid getting into debt. I think that's realistic for me if I just set my mind to it.
Ok, enough of all this...I think I'm writing it more to myself than to any of you reading. Sort of like rationalizing why I'm so f*cked up about this stuff, although I can't really put my finger on it.
