She's gone

[lalicopa]

I took Bama to the emergency vet clinic after my vets were unable to diagnose her with anything. The vet there said that she had a tumor behind her eye, that her other eye was completely blind. He said she was probably in pain from the NON tumor eye because of glaucoma and that the recommendation would be to remove that eye. In the other eye, there was a tumor (assumed) and either a clotting disorder or an entanglement with a blood vessel. The best case scenario was that they'd do the CAT scan and find out that she had a tumor/growth/whatever and then remove it, which would mean losing any vision in that eye (which had vision). The cost of all this would be $5,000 minimum and there were no guarantees that she'd react favorably to the procedures let alone to being blind.

She was 12 1/2 years old.

I made a bunch of phone calls and spoke more with the vet, who looked like a child, but was very sweet and smart. He said I was doing the right thing. I called my regular vet and the woman I was speaking to there before said I was doing the right thing. I just hate that it was my decision. Although in all honesty, it really wasn't, because she wasn't going to bounce back even if we did do all the interventions possible.

I broke down in the parking lot and cried most of the way home. I stopped off for some therapeutic chocolate.

I told the kids that Bama was very sick and very old and that the doctors tried to help her but that there was nothing else they could do. I told them she died and we wouldn't have her anymore, but that we loved her and she loved us very much. They asked a few questions and I think there are more to come when they really realize she's not here.

Gotta go boob Ella to sleep, more later.

Comments

[mistresstrixe.livejournal.com]

I am so, so sorry.

I know it was the right thing to do, but I also know how hard it is.

[bafleyanne.livejournal.com]

Aww, I'm so sorry. *hugs*

[choptliver.livejournal.com]

It's really hard to make that decision, but if she had been a dog in nature, she would never have had this many good years.

Being a grown up sucks sometimes. You did the right thing.

[tellinellen.livejournal.com]

oh jen. i am so so sorry. really, i am crying for you. i know how crazy it is, you wonder what's wrong and you go to the vet and all of a sudden - boom - your sweet animal is gone. it all happens so fast.

i am so sorry.

*hugs*

[ketchupgirl81.livejournal.com]

jen,

i am really sorry for your loss. sending you lots of light and healing!

:o(

[tahoebean.livejournal.com]

((((Mush))))

[joy-disaster.livejournal.com]

Oh Jen I feel terrible for your loss. I had to make this same decision for my dog a few years ago and even though it is the right thing to do it is still so incredibly sad (((hugs))))

[tafagirl.livejournal.com]

I'm so sorry, this is so hard. And very sad :-(

[kmelion.livejournal.com]

{{hugs}}

Quite a few people I know (both in LJ-land and IRL) have had to put their elderly, ailing pets to sleep... myself included.

[mybonnykate.livejournal.com]

I'm so sorry.

[k425.livejournal.com]

I'm so sorry.

[schmoomom.livejournal.com]

aww, honey. *hugs*

[elisesara.livejournal.com]

{{{hugs}}} What a week you are having. I am so so sorry. Loosing a beloved pet is so hard, even when it is clearly time for them to go.

[freedom123.livejournal.com]

(((hugs)))

I am sorry for your loss...

[redhen.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry I didn't say anything last night, but I thought about you last night and again this morning. I know how much it sucks to lose a pet that you're really close to, so I'm so sorry. :(

Sorry to hear about your dog

[afatbastard.livejournal.com]

She was a sweet and nice animal . You did the right thing.

[kerinda.livejournal.com]

These are the hard times. *hug*

All our sympathies for you and the kids.

[intravenous.livejournal.com]

I'm so sorry Jen. Losing a pet is so hard, especially one you've had for so long.